Tuesday, May 18, 2021

21 July, 1882 - letter Vincent van Gogh to his brother Theo

Theo,

Today I have done a study of the cradle, with a few streaks of color in it. I am also doing a repeat of those meadows, which I sent to you last time.

My hands have become rather too white to my liking, but what can I do about it?

I will also work out of doors again, I am less concerned that I may regret it than about staying off work any longer. Art is jealous, she does not accept that an indisposition should be counted more important than her. So I let her have her way. You should therefore, I hope, soon have a few reasonable drawings sent to you.

People like me should not really be allowed to get ill.

You really have to understand how I consider art. To reach the essence of it, you have to work long and hard. What I want and what I am aiming for is infernally difficult, and yet I believe I am not aiming too high.

I want to make drawings that will touch people. Either in a figure, or in landscape, I would like to express, not something sentimentally melancholy, but sincere sorrow. 

In short, I want to get to a stage where it is said of my work: this man feels deeply, and this man is sensitive. Despite my so-called roughness, you understand, or perhaps just because of it. 

It seems rather pretentious to talk like this, but that is the reason why I want to devote all my efforts to it. 

What am I in the eyes of most people? A nonentity or an eccentric, or a disagreeable fellow - someone who has no position in society or will ever have one, in short, the lowest of the low. 

Well, assuming that everything were exactly so, then I would like to show through my work what is in the heart of such an eccentric, such a nonentity. 

That is my ambition, which in spite of everything is based less on anger than on love, based more on a feeling of serenity than on passion. Although I am often in trouble, there is inside me a serene, pure harmony and music. In the poorest hovel, in the grubbiest corner, I can see paintings or drawings. And as if compelled by an irresistible urge, my soul goes out in that direction. 

More and more, other things are pushed out aside, and the more this happens, the sooner my eye can discern the picturesque. Art demands a tenacious effort, an effort in spite of everything, and continuous observation. By tenacious effort I mean in the first place constant labor, but also not abandoning your views at someone else's say-so.

Because I now have such a broad, such a liberal feeling for art and life itself, of which art is also the essence, it seems to me so glaring and false when there are people who only want to rush me. Personally I feel that many modern paintings have a peculiar charm that the old ones don't have. 

I hope that apart from the one I did today, I will draw the cradle a hundred times more, with tenacity.

Vincent

Monday, May 17, 2021

Quiet down

 

finally, the world quiets down

my well-deserved serenity


I need the space, the distance

my solitude


have never acted to gain the liking

neither ever burdened by the responding

words and phrases out rumbling 

as they destined for the calling


frozen, in the middle of a frisky celebration

lost, when buzzed by a gleeful conversation

drown, in her own flood of thoughts and impulsion


her world is but imagination

her reality is but fascination


solitude, her eternal garden of obsession



 yet I live and die for you

...


if I'm gonna be gone tomorrow

what songs would you play

when you're remembering me?


Friday, May 14, 2021

Internet Violence in China #Brainwash #Propaganda #ExtremeNationalism #Discrimination #Defamation #Persecution #FalseAccusation #PromoteHatred #MinistryofTruth #ThoughtPolice

I thought by "blocking" the users, the comments they left will disappear too, however Twitter is different from Youtube...don't want to waste time deleting these comments one by one, I have to do soooo much in Youtube already...so just let my Twitter have what it is and be a place to display what it looks like....

well, I am so used to it... 

https://twitter.com/feimoyu21_



*Why? Because I am a woman, I married an Indian and I have my own thinking and opinions.

*Original texts are in the Chinese language, Google Chrome did the automatic translation.



















你的疑問 你的亢奮 你的勃激 

你世界裡的丑惡與扭曲 

和我的世界沒有一毛錢關係 

我們生活的空間完全平行 

沒有交集 


所以我需要做任何關於自己身份的解釋嗎? 

完全沒有一丁點的必要 


你們愛怎麼想就怎麼想 

自己開心就好 

如果我的存在能給你帶來短暫的興奮與滿足 

我反而因此感到愉悅



--Related Blogs: 

*Why nailed me as a piece of countering-free-world propaganda and brainwashing material? https://feimoyu21.blogspot.com/2021/09/twitter-june-sep-internet-violence.html 



*[Twitter May-June] Internet Violence - Making a Record as How it is Unfolding https://feimoyu21.blogspot.com/2021/06/twitter-may-june-internet-violence.html 

*The real violence usually are sent via DM https://feimoyu21.blogspot.com/2020/06/dm.html 


*Why I regularly post the violent comments I receive? https://feimoyu21.blogspot.com/2020/06/why-i-regularly-post-violent-comments-i.html 

*A Poem - If I Could Stay, Why I Ever Leave? https://feimoyu21.blogspot.com/2020/10/a-poem.html 

*With You By My Side, My World Lit Up Like A Northern Sky https://feimoyu21.blogspot.com/2021/03/with-you-by-my-side-my-world-lit-up.html 



*Internet Violence in China #Brainwash #Propaganda #ExtremNationalism #Discrimination #Defamation #Persecution #FalseAccusation #PromoteHatred #MinistryofTruth #ThoughtPolice https://feimoyu21.blogspot.com/2021/05/internet-violence-chinese.html

-- Related Youtube Videos: 

*The Incident in February 2021  https://youtu.be/ddrSYPc5A98 

*When They Make Hit Videos About U, U Know U'r Famous!..Hilarious..  https://youtu.be/crfz0CNMJRk 

*😂😂 How Famous am I in China? Some Video Platform Search Results #郑墨沫 #中印恋人 #嫁给印度人 #网络暴力 #抹黑污蔑 https://youtu.be/xTxqcTyb12I

*21世紀中國式的黑白顛倒 指鹿為馬 閉塞無知 公開羞辱 侵犯私權 文革批鬥 My Story in Parallel Universe: Public Shaming and Persecution https://youtu.be/6X-YiGiGaHY

*The Most Violent Languages Usually Sent Via DM(2)https://youtu.be/YrdHZJem6WI

*The Most Violent Languages Usually Sent Via DM(1) https://youtu.be/tf4nJlgt1cI 

*China-India Border Tensions Bring Internet Violence To Chindian Family https://youtu.be/rlng22KPGEs 

*China's Internet Censorship and Violence 【21世紀文字獄】https://youtu.be/EoWGwqscwNo 

*Internet Violence - Glimpse of 12 Years of Violence Against Me in Chinese Internet https://youtu.be/tXRBaqQBux0 

*[Twitter May-June] Internet Violence - Making a Record as How it is Unfolding #辛格莫默 #嫁給印度人 #網絡暴力 https://youtu.be/JF2pxR5c9Xo

*[Twitter June-July] Internet Violence - War is Peace Freedom is Slavery Ignorance is Strength #網絡暴力 https://youtu.be/zD25PJVnacQ

*[Twitter Aug-Sep] Internet Violence #ExtremeNationalism #Propaganda #HateEducation #Brainwash #網絡暴力 https://youtu.be/QHjETyk2PXI

Thursday, May 13, 2021

The real strength

 

the real strength is measured by the ability to love

never the ability to hate


love and hate

sometimes the line might seem blur or thin

sometimes you might even be dragged across


but root yourself back in love

deep and wide

is the only road forward



--Related Blogs: 

*Why nailed me as a piece of countering-free-world propaganda and brainwashing material? https://feimoyu21.blogspot.com/2021/09/twitter-june-sep-internet-violence.html 



*[Twitter May-June] Internet Violence - Making a Record as How it is Unfolding https://feimoyu21.blogspot.com/2021/06/twitter-may-june-internet-violence.html 

*The real violence usually are sent via DM https://feimoyu21.blogspot.com/2020/06/dm.html 


*Why I regularly post the violent comments I receive? https://feimoyu21.blogspot.com/2020/06/why-i-regularly-post-violent-comments-i.html 

*A Poem - If I Could Stay, Why I Ever Leave? https://feimoyu21.blogspot.com/2020/10/a-poem.html 

*With You By My Side, My World Lit Up Like A Northern Sky https://feimoyu21.blogspot.com/2021/03/with-you-by-my-side-my-world-lit-up.html 



*Internet Violence in China #Brainwash #Propaganda #ExtremNationalism #Discrimination #Defamation #Persecution #FalseAccusation #PromoteHatred #MinistryofTruth #ThoughtPolice https://feimoyu21.blogspot.com/2021/05/internet-violence-chinese.html

-- Related Youtube Videos: 

*The Incident in February 2021  https://youtu.be/ddrSYPc5A98 

*When They Make Hit Videos About U, U Know U'r Famous!..Hilarious..  https://youtu.be/crfz0CNMJRk 

*😂😂 How Famous am I in China? Some Video Platform Search Results #郑墨沫 #中印恋人 #嫁给印度人 #网络暴力 #抹黑污蔑 https://youtu.be/xTxqcTyb12I

*21世紀中國式的黑白顛倒 指鹿為馬 閉塞無知 公開羞辱 侵犯私權 文革批鬥 My Story in Parallel Universe: Public Shaming and Persecution https://youtu.be/6X-YiGiGaHY

*The Most Violent Languages Usually Sent Via DM(2)https://youtu.be/YrdHZJem6WI

*The Most Violent Languages Usually Sent Via DM(1) https://youtu.be/tf4nJlgt1cI 

*China-India Border Tensions Bring Internet Violence To Chindian Family https://youtu.be/rlng22KPGEs 

*China's Internet Censorship and Violence 【21世紀文字獄】https://youtu.be/EoWGwqscwNo 

*Internet Violence - Glimpse of 12 Years of Violence Against Me in Chinese Internet https://youtu.be/tXRBaqQBux0 

*[Twitter May-June] Internet Violence - Making a Record as How it is Unfolding #辛格莫默 #嫁給印度人 #網絡暴力 https://youtu.be/JF2pxR5c9Xo

*[Twitter June-July] Internet Violence - War is Peace Freedom is Slavery Ignorance is Strength #網絡暴力 https://youtu.be/zD25PJVnacQ

*[Twitter Aug-Sep] Internet Violence #ExtremeNationalism #Propaganda #HateEducation #Brainwash #網絡暴力 https://youtu.be/QHjETyk2PXI

Wednesday, May 12, 2021

The vulnerability of the human race

It is utterly strange that human beings could be so easily deceived and manipulated. 

Once you take away independent thinking and free press, the mass could buy into whatever shit you feed them. 

Actually, the vulnerability of humans has been proved disheartening over and over again. 

Just that when it's in front of your eyes, every time I still need time to tell myself: it is real, it's really happening in the 21st century.

[ I'm literally amazed by the amount of Chinese (every day hundreds) who are sincerely inquiring (besides their extremely vulgar and violent languages): "Are you really the mistress of this Indian man? Where is his real wife?" ]


--Related Blogs: 

*Why nailed me as a piece of countering-free-world propaganda and brainwashing material? https://feimoyu21.blogspot.com/2021/09/twitter-june-sep-internet-violence.html 



*[Twitter May-June] Internet Violence - Making a Record as How it is Unfolding https://feimoyu21.blogspot.com/2021/06/twitter-may-june-internet-violence.html 

*The real violence usually are sent via DM https://feimoyu21.blogspot.com/2020/06/dm.html 


*Why I regularly post the violent comments I receive? https://feimoyu21.blogspot.com/2020/06/why-i-regularly-post-violent-comments-i.html 

*A Poem - If I Could Stay, Why I Ever Leave? https://feimoyu21.blogspot.com/2020/10/a-poem.html 

*With You By My Side, My World Lit Up Like A Northern Sky https://feimoyu21.blogspot.com/2021/03/with-you-by-my-side-my-world-lit-up.html 



*Internet Violence in China #Brainwash #Propaganda #ExtremNationalism #Discrimination #Defamation #Persecution #FalseAccusation #PromoteHatred #MinistryofTruth #ThoughtPolice https://feimoyu21.blogspot.com/2021/05/internet-violence-chinese.html

-- Related Youtube Videos: 

*The Incident in February 2021  https://youtu.be/ddrSYPc5A98 

*When They Make Hit Videos About U, U Know U'r Famous!..Hilarious..  https://youtu.be/crfz0CNMJRk 

*😂😂 How Famous am I in China? Some Video Platform Search Results #郑墨沫 #中印恋人 #嫁给印度人 #网络暴力 #抹黑污蔑 https://youtu.be/xTxqcTyb12I

*21世紀中國式的黑白顛倒 指鹿為馬 閉塞無知 公開羞辱 侵犯私權 文革批鬥 My Story in Parallel Universe: Public Shaming and Persecution https://youtu.be/6X-YiGiGaHY

*The Most Violent Languages Usually Sent Via DM(2)https://youtu.be/YrdHZJem6WI

*The Most Violent Languages Usually Sent Via DM(1) https://youtu.be/tf4nJlgt1cI 

*China-India Border Tensions Bring Internet Violence To Chindian Family https://youtu.be/rlng22KPGEs 

*China's Internet Censorship and Violence 【21世紀文字獄】https://youtu.be/EoWGwqscwNo 

*Internet Violence - Glimpse of 12 Years of Violence Against Me in Chinese Internet https://youtu.be/tXRBaqQBux0 

*[Twitter May-June] Internet Violence - Making a Record as How it is Unfolding #辛格莫默 #嫁給印度人 #網絡暴力 https://youtu.be/JF2pxR5c9Xo

*[Twitter June-July] Internet Violence - War is Peace Freedom is Slavery Ignorance is Strength #網絡暴力 https://youtu.be/zD25PJVnacQ

*[Twitter Aug-Sep] Internet Violence #ExtremeNationalism #Propaganda #HateEducation #Brainwash #網絡暴力 https://youtu.be/QHjETyk2PXI

Wednesday, May 5, 2021

"German Nazis claimed Aryans were 'Master Race' whose descendants should Rule The World" - scholars' writings on dismissing of "Aryan invasion theory" and debates on "Out of India theory"

"British imperialists used Aryan invasion theory to explain the inferiority of the Indian 'race', hence the need for British rule."

"The idea of such a military invasion and conquest, in fact, informed Adolf Hitler's creation of the myth of Aryan superiority."

 

"A Brief History of India" by Judith E. Walsh (first edition 2006)  

"What happened to Harappan civilization? British archaeologists in the early 20th century (and others later) blamed its end of the 'Aryan invasion', the migration into the subcontinent of Indo-Aryan warrior tribes from Central Asia and Iran. Scholars now know these tribes entered the region in large numbers centuries after Harappan civilization was in decline and many cities had already been abandoned. Instead, they debate other possible reasons for the Harappan end - climate change, endemic disease, river flooding - or speculate on how an as-yet-unknown Harappan ideology might have contributed to its demise. Hindu nationalists of the 20th and 21st centuries claim Harappan civilization as the birthplace of Sanskrit and Hindu culture - an 'Out of India' idea that many strenuously dispute. In the end we are left with many questions and with speculations, but with few firm answers. "

Into or Out of India

Over the past 150 years many groups have used the Harappan and Aryan legacies for their own purposes. The "Aryan invasion" theory originated in 19th-century efforts to explain linguistic similarities between Sanskrit and the languages of Europe and Iran. A collection of tribes, this linguistic argument runs, once lived together north of the Black and Caspian Seas. These peoples were nomadic and warlike, used horses, and raised herds of cattle; they shared a common language (sometimes called "proto-Indo-European"). As these tribes broke apart, some migrated west into European lands, others (Indo-Iranians) moved into southern Central Asia, Iran, and Afghanistan. By 1700 B.C. a further subgroup, the Indo-Aryans, had broken off to migrate into southern Afganistan, reaching the Punjab region of the subcontinent by 1400 B.C. The term Aryan was used only by the Indo-Iranian group. However, European scholars of the 19th century commonly (and Mistakenly) used Aryan to refer to the entire community from which the languages of Europe, Iran, and India derived (Bulliet 2002). Until very recently it was thought that the Indo-Aryans had destroyed Harappan civilization, but although the linguistic theory is still widely accepted, studies now show that the Indo-Aryans actually entered India in large numbers two centuries after the decline of Harappan civilization. 

This theory was used by such 19th-century European scholars as Oxford don Friederich Max Muller to underline the "family" connection between "the Celts, the Germans, the Slaves [sic], the Greeks and Italians, the Persian and Hindus". All of these people at one time were "living together beneath the same roof..." (Trausman 1997, 177). Later British imperialists used the same theory to explain the inferiority of the Indian "race" - through mixing with indigenous peoples, Indians had degenerated from an earlier Aryan state - and, hence, the need for British rule. German Nazis in the 20th century claimed the Aryans were a superior "master race" whose descendants should rule the world. In the German formulation, however, the Indians, as Aryans, were part of the master race, not inferior to it. 

Hindu nationalists in the 20th and 21st centuries have challenged the Aryan invasion theory, arguing that Aryan culture was indigenous to India and Aryans were the creators of the ancient Harappan civilization. Descendants of these Harappan-cum-Aryans later traveled "out of India", spreading the Indo-European languages (and Aryan race) into Iran and Europe. According to this theory the Hindus in India all descend from this original Harappan/Aryan race. As descendants of the original Indian people, Hindus are the only group who can legitimately claim the right to live in and govern the modern country of India.

Within India - including among Hindu groups - strong opposition to the "out of India" theory has come from modern-day Dalit (Untouchable) communities, such as the group that maintains the 21st - century Dalitstan Web Site. The Dalitstan Organisation sees Dalits as the original Indian peoples who created the ancient Harappan civilization. For Dalitastan, it was the Aryan invaders, the ancestors of today's Brahmans, who "conquered and enslaved the original inhabitants of India" (Ganesan 2001 1-2).

One problem with the "out of India" theory, lies in the absence of horses from the ancient Harappan region and sites. Indo-Aryan tribes were nomadic, pastoral people who fought their frequent battles in horses: There are no horses on its seals; no remains of horses - although there are domesticated cattle and donkeys - found at its sites. In the early 21st century one enthusiastic proponent of the "out of India" theory attempted to improve the historical record by altering an image of a Harappan seal to make its bull (or unicorn) look like a horse (Witzel and Farmer 2000). Such efforts show that current controversies over Harappa and the Aryan invasion are as much struggles for identity and political legitimacy in the Indian present as they are arguments about the historical past. 


"Getting to know Hinduism - Religion, Traditions, Culture and Philosophy" 

by Mark W. Muesse (first edition 2018)


The Demise of the Indus Valley Civilization and the Advent of the Aryans

After the discovery of the Indus Valley Civilization, modern scholars were faced with the task of explaining the demise of the great culture and its relationship with the Indo-Aryans, a people with whom the Hindu traditions had long been associated. The theory that came to prominence in the early 20th century suggested that the Indus Civilization declined near the middle of the second millennium BCE when bands of light-skinned Aryans ventured into the Indian Subcontinent from Central Asia and conquered the dark-skinned Indus dwellers. This theory was not an unreasonable conclusion, given the Aryans' documented love of war and conquest. The idea of such a military invasion and conquest, in fact, informed Adolf Hitler's creation of the myth of Aryan superiority and his appropriation of the swastika (卐), an ancient Aryan symbol.

Today, however, most scholars, of ancient India think the Aryans' arrival in South Asia was well short of an invasion. The invasion theory is now generally acknowledged as heavily influenced by the ideology of Western colonialism. Other evidence paints a different picture of the Aryan movement into India. We know, for example, that the Indus Civilization was already in serious decline by 1600 BCE, when the Aryans supposedly subdued the region by military means. Recent satellite photography has shown that between 1900 and 1600 BCE the Indus River changed course, leaving the region desiccated, Archaeology confirms that cities of the Indus Civilization were being abandoned during this period. Furthermore, there is no evidence, archaeological or otherwise, to suggest a massive Aryan conquest. The Aryans' own extensive writings never mention wars or hostilities against peoples who can be positively identified as indigenous to India. In all likelihood, the Indo-Aryans migrated slowly and relatively peacefully into the Indus region beginning around 1600 BCE and may have coexisted for a time with the remaining citizens of the native culture. 

But there is another theory to explain the relationship between the Indus dwellers and the Aryans. According to this idea, the Aryans were actually indigenous to India, not Central Asia, and migrated from the subcontinent to other locations throughout the world. This perspective is known as the Out of India theory. According to this hypothesis, Aryan culture was actually an outgrowth of the Indus Valley Civilization. An upshot of this theory is that the foundations of the Hindu traditions are wholly the product of Indian culture with no influences from outside sources.

In recent years, the Out of India theory has been revived by Hindu communalists, who seek to promote Hindu interests and traditions in Indian politics, and by some Indian and Western scholars. Hindu nationalists believe the idea that the Aryans came from any place other than India, whether by invasion or even by a milder form of migration, denigrates Hindu and Indian culture. The proponents of the Out of India position use Aryan literature and the absence of archaeological evidence to support their point of view. Because the issues at stake are highly charged in the current political climate of India, the so-called Aryan question has now become the subject of great debate. This issue has become as much a matter of politics as of history. 

Tuesday, May 4, 2021

Skin color to a girl

 



[Interestingly, in China we have a similar saying "light skin conceals three flaws" (一白遮三丑). While in Japan it conceals seven flaws, I am wondering why in China it conceals some four flaws less...
Actually, the whole sentence is "一白遮三丑,一胖毁所有" the latter means "if you are fat, that destroys EVERYTHING!" Imagine growing up all these rotten-old demeaning bullshit sayings were deeply carved into your mind and soul.... well, luckily not mine.....]

Don't know when Aditi started to be aware of different skin colors and the different weights behind them. I caught her calling me "my white skin mommy, I like your color". I was like "What?! No no, first of all, mommy is yellow to be exact, yellow like the sun and moon, secondly, mommy prefers your brown skin, brown like the sun and moon!...." 

I thought I prepared her well, I have been praising her skin color from day one. I would kiss her all over, telling her "mommy loves your skin color, it's a bit darker than mine, but I rather have yours." 

The reason for doing that? White Supremacy exists in the most unexpected trivial matters that could unconsciously but strongly diminish a young mind's self-esteem. 

I've heard enough stories, especially for girls. 

I indeed a few times caught some girls in school comparing each other's skin color if "yours is whiter or mine is whiter". You have to admit, the majority of Asians still prefer whiter skin and if the mommies are comparing each other among themselves, their daughters learn that behavior. 

To deal with this head-wrenching matter? Thank God our VP is Kamala Harris. Aditi by now has developed a strong sense of self-pride because of the way we look up to our VP and the way our VP looks, the same brown as Aditi's. This fact gives my daughter so much self-reassurance, it would weigh down the white-loving tendency among her peers much more efficiently than a mommy's "maybe blind" love to her daughter. 

A sign of moving forward, no? I'm still waiting to see a black/brown/yellow/rainbow/white/anything Female president of America in my lifetime. 

I hold that hope high.