Friday, June 30, 2023

Cult

Below were 1100 years ago India, women and women, men and men were enjoying themselves sexually, it's just human nature. 1100 years ago, that was when Europe in pitch-dark under the control of churches, when scientists were burned alive for proposing different-than-pope's ideas, when small branches under exactly same religion with insignificant differences slaughtered and persecuted each other in endless wars. 

Any ideology or religion that suppresses human nature is essentially a cult, and brainwashing is its nature. Some Americans do still live in the dark. 

Fun fact, the little temple city Khajuraho flies pride flags everywhere, almost all hotels big and small, guest houses, airbnbs, places tourists frequent, they fly pride flags there!

[June 30th 2023, conservative dominant Supreme Court stroke down 3 progressive rulings and plan to protect diversity and promote equality. From today, discrimination towards LGBTQ community is legal for business owners. WTF America, first Roe V Wade, now step by step, more and more they are walking backwards, lead by cult-like religion.]




Commoners having sex, different positions. 
"Karma Sutra" the art of love and sex was prominent at that time.





When they were at war or border duty far away, women were scarce, so they used animals

Group sex was common





Only place in the world where Gods having sexual intimacy with Goddesses. 
Shiva and his consort, touching her breast

Vishnu and his consort

Women are not deemed to be sin, any of their body part is not deemed to be shame.
In fact, there were more women/goddesses appearance in Hindu temples than men,
Naked or half naked, covered in lavish ornaments, comfortable being themselves.
The way Hindu women wore saree was only to cover the lower part of their body.

This naughty monkey pulled off her saree to reveal her lower body part

She was touching herself because of missing her lover


She just came out from bath with her body still wet

Educated woman writing love letter to her lover

Thursday, June 29, 2023

Indian fever

I don't know for how long I would still be in this Indian fever. All I could think about was to let out my thoughts and emotions but I'm not feeling done. We are not experiencing much of jet-lag but after 3 days, finally this morning I started to work. Still, I couldn't stop myself wondering back. Oh India, why am I so connected to you? 

What happened during my two pregnancies changed all. Grew up in communists' China, religion was not allowed, there was a sense of "shame" forced upon individual's religious tendencies. It's way much worse now. But what I experienced when I was pregnant with Shiva and Aditi, didn't happen to me before, rarely afterwards. It was just unfathomably unreal, utterly unconnected to the reality I had been living in.   

But somehow I always knew, even when you were completely oblivious and ignorant, you just know. I knew my life was not going to be in China, I knew I would always be ok no matter what, I knew there was something there for me to uncover, I knew I was always protected, by something. 

I didn't get the birth dream of Shiva fully right actually, for all these years. I guess I didn't go figure who exactly was this Shiva embracing me and talking to me when I was lying bare on him, in the form of a giant tree bed. I thought that was my son. I was feeling puzzled and shy but everything was comfortable and lavish. Then there was grandpa in the same dream frame who just passed less than a month ago and whose name was "the third eye". Obviously grandpa reincarnated into my son, I got that from the time we bid farewell at his death bed, super crazy stuff happened there that day under all of family members' eyes. Walking out of the eventful farewell, right then right there I told Raj that we would never see grandpa anymore but he would come back to be my child, I understood all of that during the farewell because I was going to be the mother. Again, utterly unfathomable and unrelated to my reality then who just finished her Indian wedding, who was a complete stranger in their land, but I got it, my mind was not closed to believe in crazy shit. Raj also believed me based on what he witnessed back in the room, he was in awe the whole time. Within 2 hours, grandpa passed when we were sitting in the train from Bokaro to Kolkata. But for all these years, in Shiva's birth dream I thought the one who embraced me was my son, the showing of grandpa was just an error duplicate or something, since I already knew it was grandpa who's coming back to me.  

Lord Shiva is every woman's lover, he is mine too. Now I know. Something you just know, took sometime, but eventually you will know.

I know religion is make believe. But I keep experiencing crazy stuff, sometimes major sometimes small, I am reminded 24/7 that it's happening. That's why I highly suspect that all of this, this world, is unreal. It must be me who coded all of it into a program and we are merely simulations.  

But at this moment, my heart is full and peaceful, without loneliness and sorrow. I guess if there is truly heavenly deities, their purpose is to ease our sufferings and help us find peace. I am forever grateful for the existence of my deities: Seven Mother Goddesses, Guan Yin, Buddha, Monkey King, Dragon King, Earth God, River and Ocean Gods, Durga, Shiva, Rama, Saraswati, Kali, Sun God, Moon God and all.  

Oh India my India, oh Shiva my Mahadev, I love you so. 

Wednesday, June 28, 2023

Mahadev


 Om Mahadev

my past, my future

my memory, my consciousness

from you  I came, to you  I will go


was I a petal you fondled in the morning mist of spring

or a raindrop in a monsoon afternoon landed on your eyelid

did I run into your feet in an autumn dusk escaping a fox chase

or did I melt on your palms in the first snow at the foot of the Himalayas


what I truly am

is an emanation of you

like rays from star and waves from ocean


Om Mahadev

I touched your face in the icy spring from Himalayas

I heard your lips kissing my hair inside the Mahadeva temple

I looked into your eyes in the twirling smoke dancing above lingam

you caressed my forehead leaving a third eye

when I believed loneliness was one's only destiny


now I see, now I comprehend!

the instant after you impregnated me

wrapped up in our bare embraces

you revealed yourself and comforted me

"have no fear"

our son has been called your name since


you came into me again when I visited you with Nandi

Vasuki later whispered me the secret about our little black cobra 

seven mother goddesses were sent by you, isn't?

to a devastated land where you too exiled

to guard me from harm


Om Mahadev

you are kindness, you are love

you are in my eyes when my tears drop

you never left my mind when I drift around

you entwine my soul whenever I feel hurt and down


you are in me as I am in you

you wait for my return as I wait for you under the crescent moonlight

 

 





Tuesday, June 27, 2023

India, 2023

June 27, 2023 

Now we're back in California, but I'm not feeling whole as if I left my heart, I left a piece of my soul back in India. I've seen the world, but there's hardly any place like India, such a precious jewel of spirituality and enlightenment. Each stone, each tree, each story is radiating the timeless light of peace, kindness, acceptance, and tolerance. 

True freedom comes within. Satisfaction and peace derived from enlightenment only could grant you the ability to realize who you are and the freedom to be who you are. Thus, you could eventually make peace with yourself and with your existence. Most of human suffering is due to the deprivation of such freedom. But India, India is the only place in the world where you could obtain freedom in whatever way you prefer and in whatever shape or form you are in. 

The ancient wisdom of good and evil, light and darkness, the timeless chant of truth and deception, peace and war, the enlightenment and nirvana achieved by our ancestors, has prevailed and been passed on in calmful whispers and murmurs, in spite of all that loud destruction human brought upon because of the ugliness in our soul. And that's the power of India. 

A few days ago, a driver was chatting with us regarding what was happening in Russia. "Social structures like authoritarianism and dictatorship, ideologies like communism and extrem socialism never really work. On the contrary, freedom and democracy is the main reason humans could progress." We three reached a mutual agreement. "Sigh, India is so lucky to have freedom and democracy! We are so lucky!" The driver had the exclamation from his heart. 

Of course, India is lucky, India gave birth to human beings' oldest idea of freedom and tolerance, and that idea got carried on throughout thousands of years' ups and downs, of course India is lucky!


June 25, 2023

I think I found my favorite place in India (and the world) and wish to go back again and again. These temples are like living museums, I learned so much about history, culture, religion, and spirituality, I am also profoundly inspired by the openness and inclusiveness of the artists whose arts survived time and space. It's ultimately a very spiritual place where you can find peace, kindness, and acceptance, where you can deeply feel your connections with deities, with the people you love, and with yourself. I am forever grateful for Indian culture to fruit such timeless beauty, to connect us with our past and future, to allow us to take a pause, and cherish our significance and insignificance in this vast universe. At Khajuraho The World Heritage City.


June 21, 2023

After visiting Dalai Lama's Temple in McLeod Ganj, we took a little rest in this little café outside the temple. Sitting next to us were two senior Tibetan monks and an extremely handsome young Tibetan guy, chatting contentedly and respectfully with the seniors in Tibetan. Before we left I asked the Tibetan lady who owns the café where to shop high quality things, she replied each shop is different, some of the street stands are also good. 

Just a few doors up, we got into a little old shop with canvas paintings, the paintings exhibited outside the shop were mostly old and torn. The owner of the shop, a Tibetan woman with disabilities, walked into the shop after we did a scan of some art works indoor. The woman is a painter, the artist herself painted most of the paintings and they are hats-off fabulous. She showed us more of her works which were rolled up, some of them were painted in real gold and indeed are valuable art pieces. We eventually picked a white Tara (a Tibeban Goddess) on lotus, we all loved it, the painting is colorful, lively and exquisitely fine, we will frame it when we get home. 

The artist respectfully answered all of our questions, taught us different Tibetan Gods and Goddesses, their looks and meanings. While we were chatting, there was a French girl purhased a painting and respectfully took a photo of the artist with permission. The artist was born in India, her parents ran away from Tibet in the early times, her son who now 22 years old will start the training of painting. She lives upstairs to the shop which is a neiboring house to Dalai Lama's Temple, hence she meets Dalai Lama very often. 

The artist used the simplest tools you could imagine to pack our purchases, Shiva asked, "You don't have a scissors?" Raj replied, "They use whatever it's there for them, the simplest things, it's Dalai Lama's teaching." The artist replied with a light "haan" and a little nod. 

Then we kept walking up the street, checked up some stores but didn't find what we wanted. Right across the street to Dharamshala Sky, a ropeway connects McLeod Ganj to Dharamshala, there was a clean looking store, some Tibetan monks were shopping in there. The products there are fine and in high quality, we assume local Tibetan monks shop there for their daily prayer wears. 

The kids and I were quietly chatting in Chinese while choosing things to buy. When we were ready to go, the owner told us in Chinese that he was from Yunnan, now a province in China but before it was part of Tibet. His hometown is Shangri-la, now an extremely popular tourism destination among Chinese, famous for its naturally colorful water and Gods' own work beautiful nature. He escaped China 30 years ago when he was 13 years old, together with him there were boys as young as 8 years old. They walked for weeks across the snowy mountains in Nepal and reached east India. We chatted a whole lot of stuff for quite some time, before we left the shop, he told us he really loved it here in India, life is simple and content, and protected by law, he has the freedom to be himself and flourish in whatever he likes to do. The slow life here in McLeod Ganj is not making him rich but he would not give up that freedom for anything.


June 18, 2023

Had a great trip visiting home after 3 years, great as always, kids had a lot of fun and received a lot of love. I'm very glad to see how India, even in the most underdeveloped part where our hometown is, is growing and progressing little by little, some good changes here and there each time. 

India has freedom to thoughts and expression, India is rich and diversified in races, cultures, ethnicities and ideologies, Indian citizens have fundamental rights to speech, religion, movement and migration, ownership of property, protest, assembly and vote, these are all crucial factors to grant the trajectory of progress, no matter how slow. 

As how I carry a heavy heart seeing the too-quick-to-grasp ups and downs by the unethical, greedy and ruthless authoritarian Chinese regime, as how I witness China is falling uncontrollably again into a dark time of ignorance, exclusionism and most probably, extreme poverty of the suppressed and deprived, I take the highest regard of what India holds and wish to remind all Indians to never let go of your fundamental rights and freedom. All those rights I mentioned above, most Chinese have never seen throughout our lifetime. Yes, I mean All. 

If I, a Chinese who has now no home to go back to, doesn't allow myself to give up hope on fighting for the freedom of my country, then you, the Indians, should use whatever you have in hand to guard the light as how you guard your life against dark and evil. The light that shines upon you, is the fruit of selfless sacrifices and unimaginable bravery from countless Indian freedom fighters before you. Never let go of that light. 

As we finished our trip to hometown, we are starting our little trip to Dharmashala. We had planned to come here 10 years ago but this is the real first time. I have always wanted to come and take a look, to see what true Tibetan culture looks like, how exiled Tibetans live freely without the threat of cultural extinction and day to day suppression and discrimination. As a Chinese, I forever carry that heaviness and guilt for them, and for myself.

Friday, June 9, 2023

Putting an end to a time

It felt like yesterday when I got the energy and time to make "serious" videos. One thing to be sure now, I am not cut out for this. Never was, never will be. It was a great hobby though for my era of being a full-time mom. Now that phase has passed for me officially, I won't be able to continue it. 

This script below was for the last video I wanted to make. Well, I had a whole list of topics I wished to put my mind into, but only progressed to the unfinished "last video". Managed to write up the script in March 2021, but oh boy, making a video takes way much more time. I even recorded the parts with me in front of the camera, but putting clips together and adding audio to clips is the main work, that I could not accomplish, for the past 2 years.

Anyways, life can't stay the same, things are moving on for me regardlessly. Regardless of anything. And I'm satisfied with whatever I do. That is enough then, for that era to appear and eventually disappear, made a tiny mark in my life. All the videos still are there though lol, and I'm casually updating some new content anyway. India trip is up, I will for sure take clips and put them up! 

Lol, Makar Sankranti is the celebration of beginning (of the year) :-) 

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Makar Sankranti

 [Hello everybody, it’s Momo here, today I am going to show you how my family celebrated the festival of Makar Sankranti.]

1 It was on January 14th this year, and the date is based on Hindu Calendar. But the interesting thing is, each year it falls on the same day on the Gregorian calendar - January 14th. So how come you say it follows the Hindu Calendar? If a festival is following Hindu traditional calendar, usually it falls on a different day on Gregorian calendar each year right? Because Hindu calendar is based on Lunar cycles, and the Gregorian calendar is based on Solar cycles.


2 Do you remember I explained it in one other video when I introduced Durga Puja: in Hindu calendar, it follows Lunar cycles, but every 32 to 33 months, 1 month is added to a year, to be 13 months a year. Because 12 Lunar cycles is 354 days, 1 Solar year is 365 days, adding an additional month is to adjust the difference between Lunar and Solar days, to ensure festivals and crop-related rituals fall in the appropriate season.


[So ya, after all, Hindu traditional calendars also follow Solar cycles, and this makes it very similar to the Gregorian calendar when it comes to the progress of the years.]


3 Most of Hindu festivals are based on Lunar positions, so the date of the festivals changes in the Gregorian calendar. But this one - Makar Sankranti - as one of the few Hindu festivals, is based on Solar positions. Therefore the date of Makar Sankranti always falls on the same date in the Gregorian calendar. Each year the exact same date - January 14th. 


4 This day is the end of the month with the winter solstice and the start of longer days. According to my father-in-law, on January 14th, the sun rises more from the North side which means the weather is getting warmer. If you know how much Indians love warmth, you would understand why this day is extremely important to them. In Sanskrit, the Northward movement of the Sun is called Uttarayana, that’s why in some places in India, this festival is also called Uttarayana, such as states of Andhra Pradesh, Telangana and Madhya Pradesh in India.  


5 “Makar” is a legendary sea creature in Hinduism, it’s one of the 12 Rāshis in Hindu Astrology. Rāshis is equivalent to Zodiac and there are also 12 Rāshis in Hindu Astrology, and Makar is equivalent to Capricorn. “Sankranti” means transmigration of the Sun from one Rāshi (zodiac) to the next. Therefore Makar Sankranti means the day the Sun enters the Capricorn zodiac. 


 [It’s a very important festival in Indian culture actually, it’s celebrated widely throughout all different regions in India and other countries like Nepal, Thailand, Myanmar, Cambodia etc where Hindu culture had a huge influence in the society in history.] 


6 In Thailand it’s called “Happy Songkran”, “Songkran” is derived from the Sanskrit word “Sankranti”. In Cambodia it’s called “Happy Mohan Songkran”, “Mohan” is derived from “Makar”, which is equivalent to Capricorn. 


7 In Thailand, “Happy Songkran Day'' is traditionally celebrated as the new year, according to Buddist calendar. Every year this festival has a fixed date from April 13th to 15th, nowadays in Thailand, the new year is changed to January 1st, but people still celebrate the traditional new year in April. “Songkran” still carries the original meaning of Sanskrit word “Sankranti”, while “Sankranti” means passage in Hindu Astrology, “Songkran” means transformation and change, a change from old year into a new year. Thai people celebrate “Happy Songkran Day” by spraying water to each other, visiting Buddist monasteries and giving food to the monks. Water has significant and sacred meaning in Hinduism and Buddhism, spraying blessed water symbolizes giving blessings to other people. Thai monks also carry Budda statues through the streets of the festival as people throw sacred water on the statues. 


 [How do Indian people celebrate Makar Sankranti then? Just like all the other things in India, with the same festival and same concept, there are always millions of different ways for celebration and rituals, because each region has its own climate and geographical features, each place has its own history and distinctive local cultures.] 


8 From the ancient times to today, India (Bharat) has always been a geographical concept that the people who live in the India Peninsular shared. People have been calling themselves as people of Bharat for thousands of years, because they shared the same mythologies and philosophies despite the regional differences. Hinduism is just a way of living and thinking (there was no word either concept of “Hinduism” in the past thousands of years until recent centuries), and everything is permitted in Hinduism because everything is just a concept of living and thinking. Jesus or Allah or Saint Maria is just one of the gods and goddesses, and there are millions of gods and goddesses in Indian mythology. You can believe in whatever you want, and that doesn’t contradict with the fact that you are an Indian or a Hindu. If you are not completely satisfied with any of the existing gods or goddesses, create one yourself, just like the millions of Gurus and Saints and derivatives of religions in India. Take a look at Budda, he was not happy enough with the existing doctrines of Hinduism so he created his own - Buddhism, and that’s absolutely fine in India. Buddhism, Sikhism, Jainism were all created and thrived in India. If one knows about these facts, one has to admit that the ultimate truth about the land of India, for thousands of years, is about diversity and inclusion. 


 [To me, this shows how tolerance and acceptance creates unity and strength. And this unity has always been there in the India Peninsular until the British came and injected the vernon of “Divide and Conquer”, trying to categorize people with their differences and break them up. ] 


9 The British really messed India up, I have to say. Today’s India has not yet fully recovered from the ruthless robbery and mercenary exploitation. The India Peninsula was violently torn and divided and left an open wound in millions of Indians’ hearts. 


10 Hopefully the power of spirituality is always going to overcome human’s greed and selfishness. The lighthouse of India’s spirituality is always going to lead us greedy humans out of the darkness and sadness. In the vast universe, any of those that seemed powerful and unbreakable is ultimately inconsequential and diminutive. If you can’t find peace and light in your heart and soul. No matter how much land and material you ever possessed, it won’t be bigger and heavier than a tiny bit of dust particle, in the river of history and time.    


[ok ok.. So how do Indians celebrate Makar Sankranti? Momo focus please, focus... ] 


11 so ya, each place has its own way of celebration right? It’s like that for Durga puja, Lakshmi puja, Shiv (Shiva) puja, Diwali, Holi and all, and especially for Makar Sankranti. Actually I only found out how other regions celebrate this festival by reading articles and browsing pictures online, even my mother-in-law is not that aware of how other people prepare this festival. Haha… Obviously in Punjab, this festival is called Lohri, it’s a big festival there, celebrated by Hindus and Sikhs and other villagers of different religions. Not only does it celebrate the ending of winter solstice and beginning of warmer days, it also celebrates the harvest of winter crops. People would wear new and bright dresses, set up bonfires, circling the bonfire they would dance and sing for a few days! They sing special folktale songs that are dedicated to this festival. They would also eat special food for this festival (about the food I will elaborate more when I talk about the celebration in my family later). Children would also wear the brightest and newest dresses, go from door to door to perform singing and dancing, to get sweets and gifts from neighbors. What a fun festival!  


[Meanwhile in my in-law’s region, or I should say, in my in-law family, because even in the same region, people celebrate all festivals differently. In my in-law family, it’s more about the concept of a new beginning and we celebrate it with special food eating. There is no new clothes, no flying kites, no bonfire and dancing and singing and all that fun…Because we have fun in other festivals that are more important to us, every family is different... anyways...] 


12 January 14th, as the end of winter solstice and beginning of warm and happy days, everything good could start from this day on. Actually from December 14th to January 14th, because it’s the coldest month in the year, it’s also the most inauspicious month. Therefore, according to tradition, nothing good should be held in this month. No wedding, no moving house, no changing jobs, no construction work, everything is halted and paused. Funny little story: all of our weddings in India, I mean mine, my sister-in-laws and our friends, were not allowed to be held after December 14th. Imagine, half of the participants are foreigners, we have a long holiday during Christmas, but no, Indian weddings are “not allowed” to be held during the long western holiday (“not allowed” here using quotation marks)… it was a bit problematic for some of our friends and family members, some of them really wanted to come but couldn’t make it because of the timing... Anyways…


13 So on January 14th, everything gets to resume and restart: weddings, moving into a new house, starting a new project, new business... As the days get warmer, luck also comes back…To celebrate this beginning, in the morning we pray to God Ganesha, since God Ganesha is the God who oversees all good beginnings. 


[from our video]

Afterwards we dress up in clean and fresh traditional Indian dress, and for breakfast, we eat special food. The first thing we eat is a local sweet called Tilkut, it’s mainly made of sesame seeds. Sesame is good to eat in the winter season because they supposedly keep your body warm, and boost your immune system in the cold winter. 


Then we eat Dahi Chura for breakfast. Dahi means yogurt, Chura means flattened dry rice. Yogurt is not only good for health and digestion, it’s also considered to be sacred in Hindu culture, thus indicating good luck. We usually use it during pujas and rituals. Same as Chura, the flattened rice, because rice is one of the main foods in India, it has always been given high regards. For example, in weddings in South India, families would throw a lot of rice on the groom and bride, to give them blessings. How do you make the flattened rice? In older times, all households make it themselves. First you soak the rice in water, then fry the rice, then use a special wooden tool to pound repeatedly on the rice to make it flat, when it’s dried up, you can package and store it. Nowadays not many families make Chura themselves, because the machine-made Chura is easily accessible in the market. 


We also add sugar in the Dahi Chura to sweeten the dish. Most of the time, we use the traditional gul - gul means jaggery, it’s unrefined cane sugar, naturally concentrated from cane juice. Gul is considered to be better than refined or bleached sugar because it’s natural. I’m surprised to find some of our American friends started using gul as well. As we all know, natural food is truly better for your body, nowadays more and more westerners love to peep into the Indian households, so to discover new kinds of natural food or ingredients that Indians have been using traditionally. Things like Ghee, Turmeric, Gul, dishes like Lasi, Chai and different kinds of Masala, medicinal drinks like Ayurvedic herbal teas, and incense and flavored essential oil blends etc are gaining more and more popularity in the western world.  

 

At lunch we also eat auspicious food to welcome the new cycle. What do we eat for lunch for Makar Sankranti? Khichdi! Khichdi is like porridge that mixes rice, daal (lentils) and all kinds of vegetables. We eat Khichdi with yogurt, ghee and deep fried homemade chips, super tasty and healthy! Considered to be auspicious too.


But this year we didn’t eat Khichdi on Makar Sankranti day, instead, we postponed it, we ate Khichdi the next day.


Why? Because this year the Makar Sankranti day (Jan. 14th 2021) fell on a Thursday. In Hindu culture, Thursdays are Lakshmi Mata’s Day, Goddess Lakshmi is the Goddess of wealth and happiness, so on this day, we don’t want to destroy things. Making Khichdi is to put everything together and let them all break down and blend, kind of like destroying the ingredients. So we don’t want to make Khichdi on Thursdays, at least my in-law family believes so. Usually we eat Khichdi on Saturdays, because it’s easy to cook, just put everything in the pot and let it boil, this gives mommies some time to relax and rest.


[end of our own video]


[In Hindu culture, sometimes you would find a lot of rules for everything.] 


14 For example in Hindu households, nobody blooms their floor after sunset, around 6, 7pm. Because this is the Lakshmi Goddess’ time (of power?), blooming the floor could sweep away good fortune, as most Hindus believe. I respect the rules and I am ok with them, most of the time…. until it gets inflexible and rigid. And it’s extremely hard for me to face the rules or ways that discriminate against special groups of people, for example, women, LGBTQ, certain professions, lower classes or lower castes. And I hope as people getting more and more aware of the inequality and underlying discrimination that exist in the soceity, rules which instigate and reinforce discriminative behaviors should be rejected one by one slowly. And that’s why speaking up for yourself, making your voice heard is such a crucial social act. I always encourage different individuals to share their stories and their perspectives. Every Story Matters.


[Ok! This is what I want to say about the festival of Makar Sankranti and how my family celebrates it. I hope you enjoyed it and I will see you in the next video!]

Thursday, June 8, 2023

"Authoritarianism and Patriarchy go hand in hand"

The new generation of Chinese democracy fighters and leaders grew up in the time of LGBTQ and "MeToo" movements across the world. As a woman, I'm so moved to see the young Chinese guys recognizing that fighting for democracy and fighting against patriarchy goes hand in hand. 

The way they admit themselves as "collective patriarchal perpetrators" besides being "totalitarian victims" is so refreshing and encouraging. The way they openly claim themselves to be "hard-core feminists" make me and women like me feel safe to claim ourselves one of them and would love to fight with them shoulder by shoulder. 

Below is the auto translation by Google of CitizensDailyCN's organizer's speech in LA, addressing the recent sexual assault allegations against one of the key student leaders during "1989 movement" and now a key activist for Chinese democracy movement - Wang Dan. 

"CitizensDailyCN" "Northern Square" "Democracy Wall" are countless social media accounts and chat groups across various platforms such as Instagram and Telegram. They were created by young Chinese who were inspired by the White Paper Revolution in November 2022. Young Chinese democracy fighters, mostly anonymously, gather around these new accounts to discuss all topics, organize protests, and much more.


Hello everyone, I am an ordinary young man, and like everyone here, I look forward to democracy and freedom for every Chinese. 
My friends and I, like Wang Han, are from the Bay Area. We have seen many predecessors of the "eight and nine" generation in the Bay Area, such as the "white paper revolution", we met Mr. Fang Zheng in front of the San Francisco embassy, Wang Han when he was on hunger strike at Apple's headquarters, and Mr. Chen Weiming and Zhou Feng locked them. So thank you very much to our "eight-nine" seniors Always keep up with the times with the attention to current affairs, care about the struggle of our generation. 
I would like to first share the legacy of the "89 Student Movement" for us. Of course, we can't represent every young person, but we think that many people may resonate with us. For us, the "August Nine Democracy Movement" has shown us the brilliance of Chinese's struggle for democracy, the brilliance of courage, and a source of courage from which we can always get it. During the White Paper Revolution, young people across the United States, and even communities organized around the world, were named after the "Wall of Democracy." We have the "Northern California Democracy Wall" and the "Southern California Democracy Wall", and this is the role of the "89 Democracy Movement" as a beacon for us. 
And at the same time, the "89 Democracy Movement" is also something that happened before we were born. Its legacy, is as much a result as it is something that our generation of young people has no choice to undertake when they are born. The political awakening of our generation and our political growth have been influenced by countless overseas protests and political trends in addition to China's local struggles. Especially those of us young people overseas, many of us are influenced by the progressive trend of thought in Europe and the United States, and we support ethnic equality, gender equality, and sexual equality. In the past decade, we have not only been infected by the struggle for democracy and protection in Hong Kong and Taiwan (my own democratic awakening was the Umbrella Movement in Hong Kong in 14 years, I believe that many people were infected by the "sunflower" and "anti-extradition center"), but we were also infected by the progress made by East Asian society in terms of sexual minority rights, for example. Over the past few years, Chinese mainland's "MeToo" and feminist movements have deeply influenced our generation and aroused the determination of more friends to come out and join our struggle. 
I don't know if you know that there is a very popular Taiwan drama called "The Chosen Person - Wave Maker", Wavemakers, its English name is this. This is the first film and television work in history to be set in democratic elections in Chinese society, and takes place in the only country with democratically elected Chinese culture, which is Taiwan. I think every friend here who cares so much about the practice of democracy I should like this show very much, and everyone can watch it on Netflix. While depicting the politics of democratic elections, this drama uses a female perspective to fully depict the occurrence of a sexual harassment case, the victim's feelings, reactions and resistance, and how justice can ultimately be achieved. After the appearance of this drama, a round of "MeToo" in political circles was set off in Taiwan. The former chairman of the Democratic Progressive Party and the current president, Taiwanese President Tsai Ing-wen, have come out to take responsibility and apologize for the sexual harassment cases that occurred in the DPP. 
I hope you can understand the context of this incident. These events are a bottom-up democratic process in society, not some malicious foreign force. And the DPP, as a ruling party, can face up to the ruling party that takes responsibility for mistakes and publicly apologizes, isn't this what we have dreamed of in the past 34 years? Isn't this the embodiment of the democratic spirit of the "August Nine Democratic Movement"? No organization or anyone is perfect and never makes mistakes, but we should all take responsibility for what we have done. Our younger generation still remembers the "MeToo" cases in recent years, especially in China. Like the case of Xianzi v. Zhu Jun, the case of Minnesota, Jingyao v. Liu Qiangdong, and the sexual harassment allegations against screenwriter Shi Hang in China a while ago. This is also the struggle of our generation. 
We deeply understand and deeply empathize with the victims who stand up and accuse; We understand that it is very difficult to obtain and preserve evidence in such sexual harassment and assault cases; We understand that even if the court cannot give a guilty verdict, it is likely that it is only because of insufficient evidence, but this does not necessarily mean that the incident did not really happen; We know better how much courage it takes for victims to come forward with real-name accusations – a great courage for being alone in the face of the entire patriarchy. 
We understand that our enemies are not only totalitarian, but also patriarchal. We understand that our politics and our struggles are not only with the Communist Party, but also around us. 
As a man, I myself am a straight cisgender man, and I hope that every man like me will realize that we are part of the "victims of totalitarianism" collective, and we are also part of the "patriarchal perpetrators" collective. The reflection and review of the mistakes and injuries we have made are the same as the transitional justice we will do when China democratizes if we are lucky one day. Confronting one's past, the harm we have caused, is transitional justice that belongs to each and every one of us. If we can pick up one ten-thousandth of the courage we had in the face of tanks and guns, to face ourselves, to face the problem itself, it is the first step towards reconciliation and unity. Thank you. 
We hope that Wang Dan will come forward and face his sexual harassment allegations. Thank you. 
大家好,我是一个普通的年轻人,和在场的各位一样,都期待每一个中国人都能获得民主和自由。 
我和我的朋友们,像王涵,我们都是从湾区过来的。我们在湾区见到过许许多多的"八九"一代的前辈,像"白纸革命"的时候,我们在旧金山大使馆面前见过方政老师,王涵在苹果公司总部绝食的时候,也见过陈维明老师还有像周锋锁他们。所以非常感谢我们的“八九”前辈们 一直与时俱进地对时事的关注,对我们这一代抗争的关心。 
我想首先来分享一下,“八九学运”对我们来说的legacy。我们当然就不能代表每一个年轻人,但我们觉得可能很多人都跟我们有类似的共鸣。对我们来说,“八九民运”,向我们展示了中国人争取民主的光辉,是勇气的光辉,是我们永远可以从中获取勇气的一个源泉。白纸革命期间,年轻人们在美国各地,甚至说世界各地组织的社群,不一而同地都以“民主墙”命名。我们有“北加州民主墙”、“南加州民主墙”,这个就是“八九民运”对我们来说一个灯塔的作用。 
然后同时呢,“八九民运”也是我们出生以前发生的事情。它的遗产,它的legacy和它的结果一样,都是我们这一代年轻人出生之后没有选择、必须承担的东西。我们这一代人的政治觉醒以及我们的政治成长,在中国的本土抗争之外,还有无数的海外抗争和政治思潮的影响。尤其是我们这些在海外的年轻人,我们很多是受欧美的进步主义思潮影响,我们支持族裔平等、性别平等、性向平等。在过去的这十年里面,我们不仅仅被香港、台湾对于争取民主、保护民主的抗争所感染(我自己的民主觉醒是14年香港的雨伞运动,相信有很多人被“太阳花”、“反送中”所感染),而同时我们也为东亚社会在比如说性少数权益上所取得的进步所感染。过去几年来,中国大陆的"MeToo"和女性主义运动,都是深深地影响了我们这一代人,也唤起了更多朋友走出来参与我们的抗争的决心。 
不知道大家知不知道最近有一部很火的台剧叫做《人选之人——造浪者》,Wavemakers,它的英文名是这个。这是有史以来第一部在华人社会以民主选举为背景的影视作品,发生在唯一一个有民主选举的华人文化的国家,就是台湾。我觉得在场每一位这么关心民主实践的朋友 应该会非常喜欢这一部剧,在 Netflix 大家就可以去看。而这一部剧呢它在描绘民主选举的政治同时,它用一种女性视角完整地描绘了一起性骚扰案件的发生,受害人的感受反应以及反抗,以及正义最终可以如何实现。这一部剧出现之后,在台湾掀起了一轮在政治圈的“MeToo"风潮。民进党的前党主席同时也是现在的总统,台湾总统蔡英文,都出来为发生在民进党的性骚扰案件担责、致歉。 
我希望大家能够理解这个事件发生的脉络。这些事件发生是一个社会自下而上的民主的进程,而不是什么不怀好意的境外势力。而民进党作为一个执政党,能够直面错误承担责任、公开道歉的执政党,这不就是我们这34年来梦寐以求的东西吗?这不就是“八九民运”的民主精神的体现吗?没有哪一个组织或者是哪一个人是永远完美永远不犯错误的,但是我们都应该为自己做过的事情承担责任。我们年轻一代对这几年的"MeToo"案例,尤其是中国的,记忆犹新。像弦子诉朱军的案例,发生在美国明尼苏达,Jingyao 诉刘强东的案例,以及前阵子国内对编剧史航的性骚扰指控。这也是我们这一代人的抗争。我们深深理解、深深共情站出来指控的受害者;我们明白这类性骚扰、性侵犯案件的证据获得与证据保存是非常的困难;我们明白就算法庭无法给出有罪判决,也很可能只是因为证据不足,但这不一定代表那件事情就真的没有发生;我们更明白,受害者站出来实名指控需要多少的勇气——这是独身一人面对整个父权制的巨大勇气。 
我们明白我们的敌人除了极权、除了共产党,还有父权。我们明白我们的政治、我们的抗争也不仅仅在共产党,也在我们的身边。 
作为一个男性,我自己是一个顺性别直男,我希望和我一样的每一个男性都能认识到,我们在作为“极权的受害者”这一个集体的一员的同时,我们也是“父权的加害者”这一个集体的一员。对我们曾经犯下的错误与伤害的反省和检讨,是和将来如果有哪一天幸运的我们能够见到的,中国民主化的时候我们所要做的转型正义是一样的。直面自己的过去、过去直面自己所造成的伤害,就是属于我们每一个人的转型正义。如果我们能够拿起当年面对坦克枪炮的勇气的万分之一,去面对自己,面对问题本身,才是走向和解与团结的第一步。谢谢大家。 
我们希望王丹能够站出来直面对他的性骚扰指控。谢谢大家。