The door

forgive me, my love

for not granting you access to this door in the corner

truth is,

I sealed it off for myself too

behind the door

a black hole portal

I'll be swirled in

I'll spin out of control

I'll be torn into a million pieces

I'll be swallowed by the absolute darkness

I'll meet a floating river in the blind

that consists of my own tears

it's my little green planet

at the end of the portal

but I know,

I'll never be able to reach

it's not fear I'm afraid of

but I haven't yet mastered the containing

I don't think I ever will

there will be others who come to live there

I'll love it as how it is

my planet

but I won't grant you access to this door

forgive me, my love