This is absolutely what internet violence looks like. And everyday uncountable new comments and violent direct messages are being made to me.
[Bilibili is a video sharing website in China.]
Each of my video, no matter the content is about Indian food, Indian dress, my Indian family or India trips, in the comment section the replies are filled with brutal cursings like "may you gang-raped a thousand times", "may you and your family die a tragic death" etc. 50% of the comments are composed with short cursings like "get the f* out of Bilibili", "not dead yet? still here?" A large number of comments would use a dog or a pig or it (pronoun of an animal) when referring to me.
80% of them urge each other to officially Report my videos and account, just because my videos are talking about India in a positive but not demeaning way. And they would tag the official account of "Communist Youth League of China", wishing CYLC would give pressure to Bilibili so to delete my account.
Almost none of them stay within facts or topics, but directly aiming for personal attacks, my accent, my appearance, my makeup, my facial expressions, my body shape, my education background, my hometown, the logic of my mind wouldn't matter at all.
Because my accent is similar to Taiwanese accent, a huge amount of the comments make a discriminating gesture to my assumed-Taiwanese identity. My accent is how my family and the people in my area speak, to the majority of users who leave comments, if you can't pronounce the so-called "standard" Beijing or northern China mandarin, you don't know Chinese at all, you don't know Chinese culture at all and you are not a Chinese at all.
From the very beginning (around Feburary 2019) of my Bilibili account usage, the users there started to accuse me "deleting comments which give blessings" so to intentionally show in Youtube, for financial benefit. I have never even had time to take a look. Now it's July, my parents are here to help me take care of my two kid, I can deal with this issue at last.
I feel that there is research value to record each of my "popular" videos in Bilibili and upload the recording in somewhere safe (Youtube e.g.), meaning my account won't be "disappeared" by other forces other than myself.
It's history, it's evidence.
To reply to those comments about me "deleting blessing comments":
1. Only the same type of people who leave nasty, offensive, ignorant and eye-opening comments in Bilibili are in Youtube watching my recording of their own nasty, offensive, ignorant and eye-opening comments;
2. Bilibili is infamous for being intolerant and filthy nowadays, uncountable accounts have closed down themselves due to the unbearable internet violence and personal attacks;
3. I never delete nor block any comment or users, that's just my online policy to myself. If I ever have the time to do such things, why do I delete blessing comments? Am I nuts? lol...
4. In all the screen recordings of my videos in Bilibili, there is a small percentage (around 3%?) which is condemning the act of internet violence (on me). In the recordings, you can see me "Like" the comments. If I have deleted them, why they are there? lol...
Why don't I just delete my account in Bilibili?
First of all, I am not a person who easily back down. Threatening works on me way less effective than treating me with respect;
Secondly, Bilibili provides an external url that allows search engines like Google or Baidu to display the video in their search result. Why not?
Until they delete my account forcefully (which could happen any second), I will keep using this platform to post videos.
Here I am posting four recordings. First three are complete recordings of three "popular" videos. The fourth one is a compilation of positive feedbacks. This type of comments are rounded up to around 3%, vs 97% violent comments, it includes some neutral feedback, some support and some condemning on internet violence.
More you can find in my Youtube account Momo Singh, under the Playlist "Internet Violence" .
[Bilibili is a video sharing website in China.]
Each of my video, no matter the content is about Indian food, Indian dress, my Indian family or India trips, in the comment section the replies are filled with brutal cursings like "may you gang-raped a thousand times", "may you and your family die a tragic death" etc. 50% of the comments are composed with short cursings like "get the f* out of Bilibili", "not dead yet? still here?" A large number of comments would use a dog or a pig or it (pronoun of an animal) when referring to me.
80% of them urge each other to officially Report my videos and account, just because my videos are talking about India in a positive but not demeaning way. And they would tag the official account of "Communist Youth League of China", wishing CYLC would give pressure to Bilibili so to delete my account.
Almost none of them stay within facts or topics, but directly aiming for personal attacks, my accent, my appearance, my makeup, my facial expressions, my body shape, my education background, my hometown, the logic of my mind wouldn't matter at all.
Because my accent is similar to Taiwanese accent, a huge amount of the comments make a discriminating gesture to my assumed-Taiwanese identity. My accent is how my family and the people in my area speak, to the majority of users who leave comments, if you can't pronounce the so-called "standard" Beijing or northern China mandarin, you don't know Chinese at all, you don't know Chinese culture at all and you are not a Chinese at all.
From the very beginning (around Feburary 2019) of my Bilibili account usage, the users there started to accuse me "deleting comments which give blessings" so to intentionally show in Youtube, for financial benefit. I have never even had time to take a look. Now it's July, my parents are here to help me take care of my two kid, I can deal with this issue at last.
I feel that there is research value to record each of my "popular" videos in Bilibili and upload the recording in somewhere safe (Youtube e.g.), meaning my account won't be "disappeared" by other forces other than myself.
It's history, it's evidence.
To reply to those comments about me "deleting blessing comments":
1. Only the same type of people who leave nasty, offensive, ignorant and eye-opening comments in Bilibili are in Youtube watching my recording of their own nasty, offensive, ignorant and eye-opening comments;
2. Bilibili is infamous for being intolerant and filthy nowadays, uncountable accounts have closed down themselves due to the unbearable internet violence and personal attacks;
3. I never delete nor block any comment or users, that's just my online policy to myself. If I ever have the time to do such things, why do I delete blessing comments? Am I nuts? lol...
4. In all the screen recordings of my videos in Bilibili, there is a small percentage (around 3%?) which is condemning the act of internet violence (on me). In the recordings, you can see me "Like" the comments. If I have deleted them, why they are there? lol...
Why don't I just delete my account in Bilibili?
First of all, I am not a person who easily back down. Threatening works on me way less effective than treating me with respect;
Secondly, Bilibili provides an external url that allows search engines like Google or Baidu to display the video in their search result. Why not?
Until they delete my account forcefully (which could happen any second), I will keep using this platform to post videos.
Here I am posting four recordings. First three are complete recordings of three "popular" videos. The fourth one is a compilation of positive feedbacks. This type of comments are rounded up to around 3%, vs 97% violent comments, it includes some neutral feedback, some support and some condemning on internet violence.
More you can find in my Youtube account Momo Singh, under the Playlist "Internet Violence" .
Some more words
My internet violence experience started from a decade ago in 2009, when I accidentally posted some photos with Raj and a short description. It created a huge wave of violent responses on me throughout China, only because of my choice.
A decade now, from establishing my blog to keep exploring new ways of expressing, from going through ups and downs to achieve extreme calmness. Thanks to this experience online, now I am as tough as a diamond.
No matter what you do, there will always be people who throw rocks at you, who spit at you. Simply because they are lacking basic respect and they don't have goals in life.
So keep your calm and keep doing the right things. Because in the end, none of those noises ever matters or hardly existed. But only the people you helped pull up, with your positivity and love.
A decade now, from establishing my blog to keep exploring new ways of expressing, from going through ups and downs to achieve extreme calmness. Thanks to this experience online, now I am as tough as a diamond.
No matter what you do, there will always be people who throw rocks at you, who spit at you. Simply because they are lacking basic respect and they don't have goals in life.
So keep your calm and keep doing the right things. Because in the end, none of those noises ever matters or hardly existed. But only the people you helped pull up, with your positivity and love.
