A new chapter

It may have been worth my time and emotions, or maybe not. Whatever happened, I have no regrets, and I don't look back. Perhaps it was something I had to go through - some unfinished business with my first love. Whatever it was, that chapter has now closed.

Finally, I am entering a new one.

In this new chapter, I'm determined to live a life free of the curse of binary doctrine that the churches, kingdoms, regimes, and male dictators have set up and imposed on us for thousands of years. In this new chapter, I'm redefining love and relationships for myself and searching for them, following my innate feminine calling.

Love, profound connections, and even romantic relationships exist everywhere you encounter human beings. In its most prominent form, it is friendship. What do Raj and I have? I think the most precise definition is friendship, especially since sexuality is no longer a restricted practice we preserve only for ourselves. Yes, at the core of the relationship between Raj and me is friendship.

Most likely, within my lifetime, I won't be able to build something as grand, deep, and solid with anyone other than Raj, simply because of the limitations on energy and time we face. But each connection and relationship can have its own jewels, and I am open to that. I'm open to countless friendships with people I collect along the way.

The people should freely fall somewhere, anywhere, on the spectrum regarding their sexual, political, and philosophical identities, and our friendships should as well. Everything is a spectrum - nature, and the beings that reside in nature should all be fluid. My mind is not going to be restricted and limited by the binary imagination anymore.

What's binary? Men vs. women, masculine power vs. anti-masculine power. While men are the masters of the social structure they constructed, all the other things and beings, including women, are possessions of men. Only by possessing women can men ensure the reproduction process is controlled, allowing them to retain property and material wealth through their own bloodline.

Since when have humans become such pathetic beings? Degradingly pathetic.

But I also openly let Raj know that, as I enter this new chapter, I look forward to establishing relationships on my own terms and exploring my innate feminine powers in my own way. You are welcome to accept me and join me, but if you can't move along with me - out of the old, stale binary world into the world of spectrums and love - I am afraid that one day I won't be able to find my connection to you back in there.

And of course, Raj has already been waving his thongs on a pole stick, having his giant dark cock out, rooting down somewhere middle in the arched rainbow, waiting for me.