Proud of Myself

Really long day. But I am gathering the last bit of energy to write this diary. 

Getting a new intern under me, this morning when I was filling her job description, in her contract my role was written as "Executive Editor of xx". It's my first time seeing it on paper, in somebody else's contract. 

I can't even begin to describe how thrilled I was, I am. Was bragging all about my work to Raj on our drive back home from Berkeley. After 8 years of pause, I have been back for a few months more than a year now. I have done some other projects but this recent role as Executive Editor of my site is my favorite. 

I guess a writer will always be a writer, writing is her soul. Never got a chance to study journalism or literature, but hey, look what I'm doing now, living up to my childhood dreams. 

Raj said, "It's all because of your hard work." 

Yes, if there is anything that never will change in me is that I put my 1000% into things, things that I love to do. Prof knows that. This time after I was back, he gave me all the opportunities to explore and to find what I was passionate about. He nearly lost me last time because I lost interest in the things he wanted me to do, I don't think he was ready to go over that again.

Anyway, long day, did a 1.5-hour hot Yoga with Raj in Berkeley, worked like crazy in the office for 4 hours, accompanied my son to his 1.5-hour-long horse riding training, practiced 1.5 hours with band members then rehearsed for another 1.5 hours. My work and music, they truly bring out the best in me and keep me pumped throughout the day, no matter how tiring it is. I just wish that I could gather more time to write, my sci-fi and my stories. But ya, it's okay for now, I will do as much as I can and things will surely fall into place as it goes. 

I am living a life not only as someone's mother or wife. Society lost all powers to impose their designated roles on me based on masses or mainstream culture. I choose what I desire to do, I decide what things, places, or who I'm in love with, and I map out my own future through hard work and with an open heart. I am proud of myself, I am proud of who I am.