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G has been under enormous stress lately. Many of her friends have been taken away by Chinese authorities. Some were sent for months-long brainwashing sessions where they were completely cut off from the outside world. Others were taken in for a few days of interrogation. All of them are forbidden from traveling outside of China.

Two weeks ago, C was taken by the police while visiting her family in China. They held her for two days, interrogated her, and then released her, but she was not allowed to leave China. She is a student at Stanford, and now her future is uncertain and at risk of being destroyed. She is a 19-year-old Chinese girl with a sweet voice and a warm personality who always smiles. She cares deeply about the Tibetan and Uyghur people, sympathizes with them, and wants to help them. I feel my fist clenching every time I think about her and the tens of thousands of Chinese people who have sacrificed themselves for a better world.

The reason for her arrest and travel restriction? One of her Stanford classmates reported her to the Chinese authorities for attending an event organized to build bridges between Han Chinese and Tibetans and to help them achieve better mutual respect and understanding. I was at that event too. We attended the event and then went to dinner together afterward. I spoke extensively with C and other young friends, getting to know their stories and lives here in the Bay Area. They are all good kids with promising futures. Those motherfucking, selfish, brainwashed brats deserve to rot in hell. They are the brain-dead little Red Guards of the CCP. Fuck you all and hope you get your karma soon enough! 

And that's why I. do. not. fuck. with. them! I let my grandma pass away without seeing me for five years because I wasn't going to risk going back on a Chinese passport. You wish! I only went back with my head held high, full of pride, throwing my American passport in their faces.

On the first day of my arrival in my hometown, my uncle, who is a policeman, told us at the dinner table, "Momo, you have to send all of your passports to the police." My dad replied, "Sure, I have digital copies of all four of them. I'm sending them to you now so you can forward them to the department."

Most of us who are over 35 have decided to never set foot on Chinese soil again. But what about the young people in their twenties? If their families are all back home, how can they not go back for a visit? And how can they acquire an American passport in just a few years?

And we are so freaking powerless in protecting them. Once they are inside China, they are completely at the mercy of the authorities, who can do whatever they want to them. And they, 100% sure, will do whatever they want to them.

Damn, my heart bleeds!

The first rule for me when getting to know a new person from China is to see if they are brainwashed or if they have actively fought against it. There are only two types of Chinese people: those who are living in complete oblivion, and those who have taken strong action to overcome the effects of brainwashing. The first type - the fearful, selfish ones of this type - will surely turn into tools for the CCP and report freedom fighters to the authorities when the time comes. The second type has gone far enough to realize they are victims of brainwashing and has taken strong action to correct that stain within themselves. Mild actions are not enough; only strong ones will do. There is no middle ground between these two types - it's either A, or B, or you die. Therefore, if after two sentences with a Chinese person, I realize they are not fiercely against the CCP, I. do. not. want. to. fuck. with. you. at. all. You should never get into my life, and I will quietly fuck myself off at this instant.

I guess young people haven't acquired that life skill yet. They just want to hang out, thinking everybody can be friends. Absolutely not. Older people like us know that most people you encounter in your life could turn into selfish, insecure, venomous snakes who are secretly jealous of you and want to inflict harm on you.

Even today, at the age of 40, I'm still learning that lesson! The good thing about me is that I say and do things from the heart, and I have an extremely pure heart filled with love, respect, and kindness. It protects me. I've now found myself surrounded by a group of equally kind life companions who would do anything for each other. We've formed an incredibly tight-knit pack. If I have any dealings with a suspicious person, I first go to this group of companions for a discussion, and they strategize with me to make sure I won't get hurt. My actions with the people in question are not just my own, but a group effort.

That's how kind people fight off evil. I wish this life lesson were taught early so that young people wouldn't get hurt. But it is a lifelong learning process, and without walking a certain distance in life, people simply won't have that wisdom.

Damn, I hope C will get out of China soon enough. We will fight for her!