Growing up we spent Lunar New Year together with everybody from my popo gonggong side of the family. That included four siblings of my mom, all of their kids. We grew up together. New year was the best time of the year.
Before my popo passed away last year, they still gathered together each new year, young people went back from cities to hometown. Except me, I came here, for the past 16 years.
Now I have gotten used to the aloneness. It is the path I have chosen. Life is all about choices. Most of the time, you can only choose one direction. No matter how much you want to be on both.
The concept of home has become obscure to me since I was uprooted as a young adult. Went through self-driven deconstruction and reconstruction too.
Maybe I was always a loner? At least half of me.
I anticipated much more joy and zeal when I finally obtained American citizenship. Surprisingly, didn't find myself going through many sentiments. Nothing complicated either.
Going through life, you try to hold on to the people and your attachment to them. But nothing stays, no one stays, some a tad longer than others.
That's why I dare not take anything for granted. Parents, children, family, friends, people in my life. Love them like it's my last day with them. Be open and present with them, and true to myself.
Was with prof from the beginning, built the site together, before we acquired fundings. Can't believe it's now again a hard time, three months, hope no longer than that. I'm going to be here supporting it through, once again.
It's going to be tough for a lot of us, the next four years. It's also going to be exciting and filled with opportunities for a lot of us. We will get through it together, one lunar year at a time.
My 10 y/o built the robot and coded the movements.
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