I do have a very, very high bar for anybody who wants something for the long run. I am energetic, hardworking, curious, freakishly smart, open, wild, and wise, and my heart is sooo soft and kind. With my level of self-understanding and competence, I naturally wouldn't last with people who don't match me.
So guess what? The questionable side genuinely won't be me. I deserve to go through people one by one and take my time to experience, observe, and understand. I deserve to make my decisions based on how I feel, who and what I want, and how I want it.
I don't expect to meet people who could turn out to be "long-term." That's going to be absolutely too tough for anybody to do—nothing is more difficult than matching me: matching my compassion, my intelligence, and my energy if they want to be close to me as a true friend who can get inside my mind and my body. So far, only Raj can do that.
But hey, I'm open to it. I am open to welcoming all that fun, all those experiences, and all those adventures. Because that's me, and I ain't changing that for anyone.
So here I am: after taking my time with my previous experience, making a genuine effort, and giving it a well-deserved finish, I'm ready for the next.
I have learned and grown so much, one story after another. I am not the same anymore, yet I haven't changed a bit. I think the most significant difference in me now is that I take total control of who I want to meet up with, when, where, and what we do.
I am never in a rush. I'm picky, freaky, and spiritual. I patiently wait for whatever the spiritual realm wants me to have; I watch for signs, and I follow them. In fact, throughout my previous relationship, I was simply following along with whatever the spiritual realm wanted me to experience—and I was thoroughly protected.
Now, I've already been set on a new journey filled with fabulous new encounters. I don't know yet if anything will be "long-term," or if anyone will pan out to be a true friend of mine. What I do know is that I am excited for novelty, for new experiences, and for true connection. But the kind of bonding that earns my approval takes years to prove itself.
So yeah, I'm in no rush to get to deeply know anybody or become their core memory. I'm just super excited to start, take my time, and ride into new adventures.
