Photos

The folder is getting so big, and we've been getting so much better at taking fabulous photos. More and more natural with posts and lighting.

I had no problem from the beginning, in fact, Raj was the one who kept deleting my photos. I took some myself when 22-23 years old, Raj was afraid "it would leak" and deleted all of them. Those were my gifts to him.

Well, that's why I would never be in a serious relationship with any random person right? There should be 100% trust. Otherwise, some of my exes might use those photos to threaten me by now. Nobody dared to take photos or videos of me when I was on long-term or one-night dates, fool-around, try-out, you name it. Guess I was very clear and firm about certain things, and nobody had the guts to mess with me.

All of a sudden, Raj was okay with it. I guess he finally couldn't resist the temptation of having such a folder to go to any time, plus we have been nude very often nowadays in various places.

And after 13+ years of kinda being forced to see the struggle of women, or you could say 13+ years of being brainwashed by a hardcore feminist. Now my husband is a half-step-out-of-the-closet feminist himself, hardcore even.

"So you are not afraid of the leaking scenario anymore?"

"Ya, kind of. I surely don't want them to be leaked okay?!"

"Why not? Not that I will voluntarily leak them, but if it ever happens, I will have no problem at all with that. What am I afraid of, or who am I afraid of? Absolutely nobody and nothing, alright? And being called a prostitute or mistress and all that shit by all Chinese is any lighter than having my nude photos leaked? Nope. I have seen it all. I have lived through some of the worst 'celebrity scandals' without being a celebrity. You can say that I have tasted the 'glamorized and cursed celebrity life' without being a celebrity. What luck, no? Now I have absolutely nothing to fear."  

"But if they got leaked, there would be a bad impact on our children, ok?"

"How? First of all, it's leaked, which means we are victims. Did we make money with it? No. Were we professionals? No. Just a couple who loved each other having some fun themselves. Secondly, you mean if one day our children find out about my nude photos on the internet, it's gonna have a blow to them? Naa, they are my children, by then they should understand if any of their friends couldn't accept their parents' lifestyle of being free and fabulous, they don't deserve to be in their life. The same goes for your friends and my friends, even family. And the same applies to their own standard of selecting friends and partners. If my 15-year-old daughter also loves to hang about on California nude beaches, she should know when and how to take off what clothes, when and how if she wants to click photos, and where and what to share around. She will be taught to be smart, and I will teach her all the scenarios. If she doesn't have the ability to navigate such things, in general life would be too difficult for her to navigate through. I will keep my children away from social media until they turn adults acutally. In any case, if there is a certain reaction from her friends, whoever has a problem with it, doesn't deserve to be in her life. A very effective selection mechanism indeed, will save her a lot of time and trouble. And please don't make me go to the feminist angle."

"Ya right, when we are old, we can release those photos ourselves. Hopefully, by then there is less stigma and discrimination toward women. By then even in America, being topless for women should be as natural as for men, just like how France is for today."

"Exactly. By then people would auction my nude photos, 2 million each. 'The digital treasure of one of the best sci-fi writers of all time', 'She surely has been wild both in real life and her writing and had a fantastic and ahead-of-her-time life throughout'. As for what I am doing now in social media, I have set up my premises a long time ago and I have been consistent. I know exactly what I am doing."

"Ya right, even I was not sure if you were being too impetuous that could lead to harm. But actually, you have a consistent narrative online and your content is usually very articulated. The boldest for sure, none of my friends ever in a million years dare to share what you share, but that's precisely the beauty and value of you."

"Exactly! That's my husband talking!!"