My story

Raj won't be with me on New Year's Eve, which is my 40th birthday night. His older uncle passed away, to ensure Raj is home for the 10th-day ceremony, he will be flying off to India at that time. Hence, Raj wanted to go out with me before that, even though I was so tired from all sorts of events. 

All these years, I don't know if Raj molded me more or if I molded Raj more. Raj is an extrovert throughout; I am half extrovert, half introvert. But when I'm with Raj, with his full-force power on, I do not have time or energy left to be reserved; I do not have the resources left to be an introvert. 

 

I enjoy being Raj's girl, wild and energetic, and never miss any endeavor. Life with him is filled with fun and adventures, always planning on some exciting sneak-aways, sneaking away from life's mundaneness. 

We talk and talk and talk, from sunset to sunrise, sunrise to sunset. He knows how to wait me out, all the raw emotions, the confusion, and the explosion. "Nothing is more fun to do in life than being with you and watching you go through the journey. You opened me up as I opened you up. You have all the freedom to do whatever your heart desires. Just promise you will always include me but never leave me out."  

I don't mind being someone's girl, it doesn't make me less myself, it's part of my journey. 

In this journey, I desire to explore what's out there in the world, known and unknown; I want to have the experience ordinary people don't have the imagination for. I also desire to look inward and understand who I am and what makes me feel content and complete. 

But above all, in this journey, I want to be free. Free to love and free to give. Free and unhesitant to answer to myself. 

I have broken out the chains from different layers of society, and I have broken the chains with all the relationships I have established with the people I keep around, keeping them raw and authentic. I will break whatever chains I encounter on my way to self-discovery. 

And yes, this is my story.