Vegas

The first time was in 2013. How young we all were. 

After companying the boys to gentlemen's club so many times, the gentlemen finally felt that the ladies should try lady's club too. 

Gentlemen's clubs were fun for sure, a large percentage of girls were highly intelligent, and many of them were earning tuition fees for higher education. 

The girls most often came for girls first, we picked the girls judging only from their faces and smile. I could easily fall in love with the ones with whom I had interesting conversations. 

The touch and intimacy had never changed from awkward to comfortable, I guess that's when I knew exactly where I resided in my spectrum.

It was fun to experience, to observe. But after a while, the boys all dispersed into different corners, not too much of a group affair anymore. 

Well, bringing us along was not our idea. Obviously, we were super fun to bring along anywhere and it has never been a bad idea. 

"Men can separate physical experience from emotions." That's what we knew. There seems to be a switch, men are able to control it, on and off. 

Boys sent us in, some inner layer chambers through a long hallway, they would be waiting the night outside where it was a crowded gentlemen's club. I guess the owner modified a small part of the gentlemen's club, just to experiment. 

This was the only lady's club in town at that time. Maybe it still is. But how empty it was that night. Such a contrast to what was happening outside the hallway. 

We picked a table far away from the stage. There were only 5, 6 very old ladies sitting along the edge of the stage. Putting their hands and arms on the dimly lighted glass, grabbing whatever came their way, dipping their heads in.

We were giggling in the dark. 

When the gentlemen came to us, we were still giggling and toughened up to stay in our seats instead of screaming and running away. 

We were the only young girls in the whole chamber, therefore in turns, all of them came to us, sat for a while, brought us drinks, and whispered into our ears. 

"What's your name? Where you from? What do you do?" From right ear to left, then right, then left. 

"You so beautiful..." Picked a lock of our hair, gazed into our eyes. While we were getting warmed up, not only on alcohol. 

"Which of us do you want? Do you want me? Or him? He is my friend. We both from XX. Have you traveled to XX before? It's a beautiful country." 

We were given an amazing amount of time and patience, they came and went, came and went, one by one. We kept giggling and discussing, trying to comprehend.

There never were more young, even middle-aged women came, the whole night, it was just us. 

What happened next, stayed in Vegas. All I can say is that I tumbled out to find the boys and got a lot more cash from them! They were like: "What are you girls doing inside?!" 

And with what we got and how much we spent, that also stayed in time, never the same just a few years later. 

The chamber expanded into huge halls, layers of tables and sofas were added. The balcony and open area were also put into use, like a proper club. Many more private rooms were added in different compartments of the building, at a price that none of us could or would be willing to afford. In 2017 when we visited again, it was filled with all kinds of ladies of all ages. Nobody had the time to play with your hair and warm you up. 

While we knew "men can separate physical experience from emotions", what we didn't know was "women really really can't separate physical experience from emotions!" Those lingering feelings and fantasies that followed us for quite some time! 

How much we wished we also had a button to switch on and off, just like men. We learned that lesson in a hard, well, also sweet way. An extraordinarily adventurous way, I would say. 

All in all, it was an unforgettable experience of sisterhood that doesn't quite happen often. And Vegas to us will always be a place to take our friendship to a special place and for it to bloom and fruit. 

As we grow older, thrown into the chaos of family and children, slowly stripped away our innocence and novice. Can we now separate physical experience from feelings and emotions? Yes, maybe we can now. 

We learned to shut off, we learned to close our eyes and stay the course. We learned to find that balance, tiptoe forward, and not trip, as long as you don't pull too hard.