微博帳號終於在用了十多年之後被從中國的網絡上“強行消失”了。從四五年前就隱約明白過來，自己最終應該逃不過此命運，和大多敢於講真話的人一樣。但從主動開始期盼並等待被消失的那一天起，到現在已經有快一年了。
“誠實堅強地發言發到最後一刻” 我實現了自己的承諾。
從來都是坦承地在記錄著成長和心路，從來都是以最誠實的心情面對自己。愛恨情仇，酸甜苦辣，生活所感，毫無吝惜地分享出來，希望對能看到的人有所幫助。
只是一個非常個人的帳號，一個生活在世界上某個角落的普通的女人。她的吃喝拉撒，衣食住行，所見所聞，她喜歡的不喜歡的，為之興奮為之感動，為之憤怒為之感慨的各種瑣事。
但網絡暴力從未斷過。在無窮無盡的歧視侮辱和謾罵噴張裡，學會了堅強，學會了韌毅。也許這是我在微博最大的收穫。
但這種狹隘低劣、閉塞愚鈍的大環境，這麼多年下來不但沒有絲毫改善之意，反而眼睜睜地看著其加速惡化，往惡的方向狂奔，一瀉千里。
這是我真心開始期盼“被消失”的原因。不捨得主動放棄那很少的幾個真心不想我走的朋友，但自己已漸漸 心.無.餘.力.。
那就這樣吧，做不到一點虛情假意、講不出一句假話廢話、從不屑於模糊不清曖昧不明、無法不以最誠實的態度面對一切的自己，終於被踢出了中國。
如果有機會可以發最後一條微博，我會給那幾個真心在看的朋友留一句：See You On The Other Side.
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2009, by accident, I became one of the Chinese internet's most Hated people (accidentally posted a piece of diary kind of article, calling for more RESPECT for Indians, got massive internet violence on myself, millions and millions of abusive comments). Therefore I started my online presence in China, putting on a lot of effort to change how the Chinese view Indians. 2021, again by accident, I again became one of the Chinese internet's most Hated people, again millions and millions of abusive comments. Therefore at this moment, I ended my online presence in China. In between 2009 and 2021, waves and waves of internet violence and personal attacks never stopped, I have seen more discriminative and nasty languages addressed right to me, more than anybody in this world... Is it my nature to always "Cause Trouble"? lol.... I guess I am just a baby radish that planted not in the right soil....well anyways....fun journey, what's our next trick? 😂 #internetviolence
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