March 10, Uprising Day

March 10, 2025, 

the 66th year of commemoration for Tibetan Uprising Day.

I did it, I went again in support of Tibetans. 

The second consecutive year of doing so,

proud of myself!

If it's not entirely impossible, 

I should always make it happen in the years to come.

Hand drew 3 posters, which took me hours last night.

One was for Ginger, 

was thinking of giving the third to a Chinese who didn't prepare.

Turned out a lot of Chinese were better at chatting/ debating away online,

but not paying actual tribute and coming out in the sun.

Packed plain nuts and some snacks, painkillers (just in case) and masks, 

spent a whole day in SF marching and shouting.

Fewer people and shorter duration compared to last year,

because March 10 landed on Monday this year,

whereas Sunday last year.

But I felt more exhausted due to my current health condition.

Ginger gave a powerful speech again, so proud of her!!!

Last year was her first time giving a public speech, 

which made her instantly famous in this circle.

Glad I was there with her too, 

and later saw her organization grow and flourish.

Our support is highly appreciated by the Tibetans

because we are the oppressors, the privileged oppressors.

Even though we rarely enjoyed any rights back in China,

we are still the Oppressors and Colonizers.

It's in our Han genes!

The President urged us to stand on stage in City Hall

to showcase our banners and posters

because "our presence is very, very important to them!"

Wish more Chinese people could be as brave as we are.

I masked up because I'd need to apply for a visa to China in a few months

via the same consulate where we stomped the communist flag

 and shouted: "Down with CCP! China Out of Tibet!" 

Through these events, we met Chinese from all walks of life.

For a moment there, in a new Chinese restaurant in SF 

opened by some guys who came legally and illegally, 

an actual hub to shelter the lowest class of lives,

it even felt like in China, 

a freer China with freer Chinese.

Maybe we could build up such a community here,

a crowd of Chinese who are free, even dare to speak up,

it is in the making, indeed.

A restaurant with the best spicy food in Bay,

live music, the feel of a hostel, actual rooms underground,

that would surely attract a lot of Chinese 

who love to hang out from dawn to dusk... 

Amn't I the master of hanging out

if living without circumstances?... (>o<)

Hanging out and exchanging thoughts,

that's the ultimate meaning of life!!

The existence of Tibetan people reminds me that

one should never take for granted what one has in life.

Most people in this world live in forever despair and desperation; 

hope is the only thing that sustains them.

Hoping to have one-tenth a life that we are enjoying 

-- exempted from any persecution, 

learn the mother language,

not be brainwashed,

and be truly free. 

Ginger's speech last year -- 2024 March 10

Us last year --

2025 Videos ---

No kinks

I'm surprisingly boring; I don't have many kinks at all.

Almost annoyed by myself for only being able to be turned on conventionally,

adhering to patriarchal & misogynistic frameworks.

That being said,

I respect and appreciate all beautiful souls from this community

who are strong enough to face an ignorant world 

and brave enough to be themselves. 

Will you stand up for injustice?

 

Life goal

I don't know how many times my mom urged me to 

"get a real job," "have some wages,"

so I "won't be dependent on Raj," 

and "can buy whatever I want but not beg the others."

I was like -  LOL? LOL!

Do I look like someone who could work 8 hours per day for some capitalist corporation?

Do I look like someone with the word "beg" existing in her vocabulary?

I idle around, reading whatever I want to read,

buying whatever I want to buy, and saying whatever I want to say --

isn't this the ultimate goal of life for most people?

Why do I ever want to lower myself into this rotten, filthy world

with patriarchal and only patriarchal standards,

willingly shed my creativity and spirituality, 

and metamorphose into a brick in the wall?

I could have chosen to not be a victim by

not giving in to monogamous marriage and childbearing.

But I was young and stupid, and I couldn't do this to my parents.

Now, with my weakened bones, whitened hair, and wrinkled face,

think I would ever want to enslave myself to someone (other than my own husband) 

and "earn a fucking wage"?

Ha! The funniest joke I've heard for days.

I tell Raj, "If I don't spend your money, well, rightfully mine, now,

in a few years, say we part ways, it will never be mine anymore!

What, I help you save it for your future young wife? LOL!"

Logically, all I should do is idle around 😂

Doubting myself?

Combing and reading through new and old articles introducing Chizuko Ueno and China's feminism movements (a lot about the government's suppression efforts). Realized that the perceived world I think I live in is a million miles away from contemporary Chinese. 

I. will. never. fit. in. there. any. more.!

But, ya, probably should address this point at the end of this entry: maybe just in time for me to catch up and learn the Chinese way to better face a Trump era that will probably last well beyond four years.  

Feminism has been effectively dismantled under the continuously malicious attacks from the government and its various hitman agencies. In the mainstream, "feminism" is now mostly used as a flowery decoration to elitism by the "successful". 

Different branches of feminism do still emerge and exist, mainly grassroots and underground. How you associate yourself with the various social classes of women and their different calling for more equality is a thing. People's eyes will be on you when you make a choice!

What the pressure?!  

But then, that has always been the Chinese or Eastern societies, no? You can't just comfortably seclude into your own world without norms and rules; people want to know which side you pick! I mean, if you are an intellectual who writes and shares your thoughts with the public.

It's not that I haven't asked myself this question: Am I really a feminist? Or let's phrase it more accurately: Do my world views on specific topics or my conditions resulting from my life choices conform to a "true feminist"? I know this sounds wildly absurd, but not only does America have Cancel Culture, but in societies where collectivism is more prominent, Cancel Culture is deep in your blood. There's even no name for it; it's simply the fundamental way of life! 

Nevertheless, that's a good question: Where am I? Am I truly a feminist? 

Publicly, I am a happily married woman who conforms to monogamy, a full-time mom in a lot of aspects, and financially dependent. I don't think I could fit in the description of a feminist, even living here in America!

And I have avoided going deep on it this whole time! 

It is hard, any advancement or progress on this path is hard, even just the discussions. I remember how much resistance and rejection were there when I first brought about the debate about monogamy and polyamory to Leena. Even now, I don't really have a clear idea of this. 

When 2024 we traveled to Mexico together, Leena was adamant that monogamy was a fruit of women's fight for equality since "polygamous (one husband with multiple wives) traditions were much more harmful". 

I guess we didn't know anything about the surging development of a polyamory world, which is driven by the feminist movement in a way or the forefront ideals of the world's most renowned feminists. 

How did we know?

Did I betray the ideals of feminism by getting married to one man, willingly having his children, and enjoying the company - oftentimes "exploitation"- of men? Am I not a worthy feminist who is still now (willingly or unwillingly) stuck in this very un-feminist situation? Does a hip but conventional mother count as a feminist?

I do question myself often, afraid that I am not feminist enough, or at all. But I am also aware that the doubting itself is very un-feminist. 

I think one day I should just make peace with it: no matter what situation I'm in today, a true feminist should be more like an ally? Ally of the underrepresented, underprivileged, voiceless, and powerless. Those we want to collect under our wings do not need to be only women, but the whole LGBTQ community counts! Anybody could take the role of a feminist, all that matters is how you perceive it. 

And that's that, then!

(See, I need to write the words out to clear my mind! That's just how my mind works...)

Misogyny as Plato and Aristotle set the tone

The foundation of Western philosophy is misogynous and colonialistic. And this is the world we are living in today through the invasion and dominance of Christianity and colonization. Modern political structures, societal norms, science, and technology are all under this framework. It is the mainstream, whereas Indigenous cultures and values have all been diminished and sidelined, mostly annihilated and dismantled. 

Don't ask me why am I, respect stoicism from a distance, only keen to read Nietzsche. There will be too much to unlearn if I ever get too close. Even though our lives are thoroughly soaked in their ideologies since birth, through the long-lasting effect of colonization and the spread of Christianity.  

Aristotle was firmly convinced that a woman was, in fact, an incomplete or mutilated man. He saw the male as the ultimate realization of humanity and the female as necessarily inferior.

Aristotle believed women were inferior to men. For example, in his work Politics (1254b13–14), Aristotle states, "As regards the sexes, the male is by nature superior and the female inferior, the male ruler and the female subject."  In Politics 1.12 he wrote, "The slave is wholly lacking the deliberative element; the female has it but it lacks authority; the child has it but it is incomplete".

Cynthia Freeland wrote: "Aristotle says that the courage of a man lies in commanding, a woman's lies in obeying; that 'matter yearns for form, as the female for the male and the ugly for the beautiful'; that women have fewer teeth than men; that a female is an incomplete male or 'as it were, a deformity'."  

Aristotle believed that men and women naturally differed both physically and mentally. He claimed that women are "more mischievous, less simple, more impulsive... more compassionate... more easily moved to tears... more jealous, more querulous, more apt to scold and to strike... more prone to despondency and less hopeful... more void of shame or self-respect, more false of speech, more deceptive, of more retentive memory [and]... also more wakeful; more shrinking [and] more difficult to rouse to action" than men. 

He wrote that only fair-skinned women, not darker-skinned women, had a sexual discharge and climaxed. He also believed this discharge could be increased by eating of pungent foods. Aristotle thought a woman's sexual discharge was akin to that of an infertile or amputated male. He concluded that both sexes contributed to the material of generation, but that the female's contribution was in her discharge (as in a male's) rather than within the ovary. 

Aristotle explains how and why the association between man and woman takes on a hierarchical character by commenting on male rule over 'barbarians', or non-Greeks. " By nature, the female has been distinguished from the slave. For nature makes nothing in the manner that the coppersmiths make the Delphic knife – that is, frugally – but, rather, it makes each thing for one purpose. For each thing would do its work most nobly if it had one task rather than many. Among the barbarians the female and the slave have the same status. This is because there are no natural rulers among them but, rather, the association among them is between male and female slave. On account of this, the poets say that 'it is fitting that Greeks rule barbarians', as the barbarian and the slave are by nature the same." 

While Aristotle reduced women's roles in society, and promoted the idea that women should receive less food and nourishment than males, he also criticised the results: a woman, he thought, was then more compassionate, more opinionated, more apt to scold and to strike. He stated that women are more prone to despondency, more void of shame or self-respect, more false of speech, more deceptive, and of having a better memory.

Plato in Timaeus (90e) claims that men who were cowards and were lazy throughout their life shall be reborn as women and in the Laws(781b), he offers his reasons why women should be educated: "Because you neglected this sex, you gradually lost control of a great many things which would be in a far better state today if they had been regulated by law. A woman's natural potential for virtue is inferior to a man's, so she's proportionately a greater danger, perhaps even twice as great." Plato further establishes his opinion on the inferiority of women's "natural potential" by claiming in Republic (455d) that "Women share by nature in every way of life just as men do, but in all of them women are weaker than men." 

Plato appears to use the term "womanish" or "female-like" as an derogatory term implying inferiority and emotional instability, as this is clear from Republic (469d and 605e), amongst others.

Plato discusses this matter with more detail in Timaeus, where he states that men have a superior soul to women (42a): "Humans have a twofold nature, the superior kind should be such as would from then on be called 'man'. He added, once again, that men who led bad lives shall be reborn as women (42b): "And if a person lived a good life throughout the due course of his time, he would at the end return to his dwelling place in his companion star, to live a life of happiness that agreed with his character. But if he failed in this, he would be born a second time, now as a woman." 

The influence of  Aristotelian biology on Christian theology can hardly be underestimated. Aristotle’s biology gave “scientific expression” to the basic patriarchal assumption that the male is the normative and representative expression of the human species and the female is not only secondary and auxiliary to the male but lacks full human status in physical strength, moral self control, and mental capacity. The lesser “nature” thus confirms the female’s subjugation to the male as her “natural” place in the universe. (1985:65)

Yen (2003:1) argues that Plato’s theory on the creation of humankind, where souls were originally implanted in male bodies and given volition, sensation and emotion, paved the way for gender inequality. For Kasubhai (1996:37, 47), the placement of the creation of women in concurrence with the creation of birds, mammals, reptiles and fish is an indication of Plato’s negative views on women.